I cant hide it....

As much as i want to hide my true feelings at home, the real ones come out....its so hard to pretend who you are and what you feel.

Hirap na hirap na akong mag-kunwari.....

-what now?

-babe, miss lang kita talaga.

come home na mahal ko.....

so far away

-sometimes this job brings me less than a millimeter from you.

but right now you are 5989 miles away

9,638,361,216 millimeters

8 time zones

i miss you so terribly babe....lets go home na.

i love you!

...I LOVE YOU

When you say it, think of the things that go along with it. Your wife, your family, your kids, your job and even your friends – because in the end when push comes to shove and you’ll realize that because you have said those words to someone else other than your wife, you have technically given up your right to have them and there is a possibility of losing all of them.

-Patricia (to lady mistress)

and then we started seeing each other without them knowing.



the first one was fast food breakfast....the fact that this was the first, this was one of the scariest.

how....

may 2007.

we were exchanging "i miss you's" way back...and even though i meant it, it never came to this point.

the "i miss you's" this time were somewhat real. more heartfelt. more true...it was funny and scary at the same time. naaaa! "it'll go away" -- i said.

it never went away...

it grew....and grew....and grew.

i miss her more everyday.

the thing was.....she felt the same.

then it happened....i called her up and asked. "NILOLOKO MO LANG BA AKO?"

she said "NO"

that's when everything began.

it grows....

-a lot has happened since i last posted.

there were several instances when the moment was write perfect, but was unable to make it to the post because i never had the chance to come back.

a lot has happened ever since.